Elisa

One thing the I have learned from the mountains of self-help books I have read is to be thankful for everything I have in life. I spent too many years wanting and needing things, and definetly too many years asking for things. I'm going to Antigua on Saturday, and I spent the whole week this week rushing to do stuff because of my trip, I havent even taken a moment to be happy that Im going there!!!! There is something wrong with that!! One thing that I dont understand about hotels is even after you pay and they take your money, why do u still have to fax stuff there?Dont they trust me that Im coming after they take the money out of my account????Why would I pay them, and not come...Hmmmm..very curious.

       So, Im leaving my computer and Kermit behind here in NY. Now Im wondering if that means I will stay off myspace, or if it means I will annoy others into letting me use theirs. Hmmm... I just dont think its good to have a laptop on the beach. No, its not. Yes, it is. No. Is there wireless on a beach? Can I use the person on the next towel's internet connection?How does sand get involved? And Kermit. I have a few options with her. I could bring her to NJ to my mom's house, to a pet hotel, or to my number one friend's house to watch her....Hmmmmm..I've known my number one friend a month now...

       I like reading into people's lyrics. Bob Dylan, John Lennon, Paul Simon, ect. But I never thought anyone would write a review/article/not sure what that was? about mine. See I think when you are discussing someones lyrics, you should definetly get them written down first so you at least know them before you make fun of them or whatever. That's like being a food critic that doesnt eat the food right? Let's not talk about me for a second, just people. What's up with all these negative almost hate-articles circulating?Poor Britney, that's all I gotta say. I never want to write anything like that again, it cant be good to have all this negativity all around you, like almost people want to see her be depressed and have a sad life. Im curious when all these bad ideas and such happened to her, did it happen when she started to listen to herself instead of her advisors? When do you listen to people?? I know myself I have been listening to others voices and opinions my whole life, and I think Im retiring from this. Antigua is going to be my new start. Only listening to myself for now on.So if you see any strange or erratic behavior, its only me being myself, and no one told me to do that.

       I've gotten some sweet letters recently from people, and hey cutiemuffinsister180 who posted the video on youtube, whomever you are please send me a message to identify yourself, I loved your video it made me so happy and definetly laugh, p.s. who was principal?It reminded me of when I used to put on little plays and sing and make my little brother videotape it.

 I am very afraid of planes by the way, and I read this book written by pilots to make me less afraid, and it made me more afraid!! And I read that book on a PLANE, it was messed up. It actually say the things that could happen that they have no control over and are basically no win situations. Never read a book about the dangers of a plane on a plane, duh.

        So tired, but probably will write tomorrow, since I wont be on for a week! Ahhh!!